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Saturday, September 21, 2002

YouKnowWho

Im talking to Rei about whats going on... suddenly I feel sick. It *could* be the Taco Time we had today, because I think they added extra grease to the food when they saw me pull up. But mostly I think Im heart sick. REALLY heart sick. My back is hurting too. I was running down the hall to get the phone, and fell, but I was ok that time, then I was moving Moms file thing, and it didnt want to be moved so I ended up in another assplant. Now I cant hadlt move.
But mostly I think Im just heart sick. Have you ever been heart sick? If you dont know what it is, the basic run down: So sad/depressed/lonley it makes you ill. Like seriously pukey sick. I only ate once today... Mi... good loord.

He send me the Email hes threatning to send Tristan. Im gonna copy and paste
To the Party whom is breaking my Sara's heartWAKE UP ya dumb fuck. I dont know where you think you get the right to treat her this way, but you better stop. I have watched her worry and grow pale waiting for you to see the light, I have watches her cut and starve herself trying to make herself forget.

You dont have any clue how bad it is. Did it ever occure to you that all the times shes said its ok, its fine, its no big deal, it was in fact NOT ok, NOT fine and WAS a big deal. You have no idea what shes going through and what shes looking at, you can say she didnt tell you all you want to sooth your troubled mind, but the fact is you never asked, never really realyl asked, its always been about you, what you need, where you need to go in life, the poor thing hasnt wanted to leave you. Right now you have to options, Grow up and be a man, the sort that deserve the frienship she gives you, or two get the fuck out coz your not gonna hurt her anymore.
If he sends that. I will die. Absolutly die. Tristan has no idea whats going on because I havent wanted to hurt him more then hes already been, I didnt want to use my pain, I... he accused me of emotinally blakcmailing him with my cutting once, I never wanted to give him that Amo again.

xoxo SJ at 5:32 PM.

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