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Friday, October 04, 2002

And Ophilia drown in a sea of despair

He is still reading my journals... right now I hurt so bad I dont care, dont give a fuck anymore. its not worth it to work so hard and be so damn hurt when things go so horribly wrong. In someways I think its my fault, like if I had just been Prettier, Smarter, Kinder, there for him more.. just more it wouldnt be this way, it wouldnt be hurting like this, he wouldnt be back in a self distructive dead in realtionship.... but I wasnt and he is.... Im trying to keep busy, to push it away, clear my mind and cleans the soul... its not working well.
I went out last night. Trin and I hit the cruise. No one was out of course, except for D and he was being such a shit to her I lost my temper and went off on him, I think my exact words were "Go to hell you f*cking Punk Ass Pussy" or something like that, then we got into it about why I thought he was a pussy and I told him real men dont go around cheating on girls, telling them they love them and then screwing their friends, only a man ho does that and he was all wounded. Im like GOOD you punk. GRR. Pisses me off bad. I cant stnad women to be mistreated... which makes me wonder why in all my realtionships I am.

xoxo SJ at 1:26 AM.

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