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Wednesday, February 26, 2003

Our Lady

Im listening to Our Lady Peace. I love their "Gravity" CD, though I really shouldn't David was the one that got me hooked on them, but they are so... I dont know, the lead singers voice melts me. I was starting to get into Muse but... well that's Trist's favorite band and it sort of ruined it for me. ;_;

Anyway, Im online right now, and everyone is either away, or not someone I want to talk to. Blah. Where are all the cool people when I need them- Answer:Laura is at a Med meeting, Rei is doing homework, Gabi is doing homework or spending time with her family, Nialle is off doing whatever it is s-he does, Trin is gettting offline, and No one else is around.

Thats not true. Ang is but I dont really want to talk to her. She has a stange obession with the way I smell and trying to "nuzzle" me. Which completely creeps me out and makes me nervious. I dont know how to deal with people like being attracted to me, and being so like... blatent about it. Like it makes me feel yicky.

I was talking to Chris last night when she started comming onto me, it was so funny, because whenever an icky girl comes onto him Im like "MY Chriskins! No sharing!" So then last night I was telling him how it creeped me out and he was like "My Abby! No sharing!" It was cute.
When I was looking for my layout I found a bunch I really loved(if you want a layout reworked so it will show up on D-x, just ask me I have no life ^.^), so I made a Diaryland account for my poetry, like JUST my poetry, and now all my RP friends are. So far Kath, Chris, Gabi, Jenn and Sarah have made them, Im going to talk to Nialle about it, and Brit, Rita, Lianne, maybe Nacy, Gabi will probably ask Rue and Gen, maybe Nancy... Id ask Laura but shes so swamped and Rei is to lazy. Lazy bum Rei! (hee luv you Rei Rei)

Nialle and I had a long talk today. I was really.. I dont know. The whole thing with Tristan left me more upset then anything, more lost then giving me answers, and Im worried about Laura going back to LA for Spring Break, and Im worried about Mom, shes way in debt again, and Im stressed about school, and Charity's car is falling apart... -today was not a good day- So it was just really nice to talk to Nialle. When I told her my new "title" s-he said "You tell 'em I said you are a rather over-sensitive but deeply loving person with a quick mind and a gift with words."

Which made me smile. A show of affection or priase from Nialle is always nice.

Its hard though because I feel like Im betraying Chris. Chris is really in love with Nialle, but Nialle hurts Chris alot because s-he cant deal with how Chris feels about her, and while she wants us to care, she also doesn't want us to get to close, and when we do, she "runs" which really means shes just deathly silent, and its painful for Chris to be around our old group of friends because he can't help but be a little jealous.... I know that feeling.

But Chris is one of my best friends. We've been through so much, and are well past the danger zone of him falling in love with me, or me falling in love with him, (though I have to admit he's adorible) we are like siblings, only closer without the fights. I told him today "We're better then family, though our blood doesnt flow through eachother, our souls do" I am such a romantic putz. He is my Kitsune Princess, and I am his Moon Goddess.... *tear* Chris is one of the best things thats ever happend to me.

Gabi is really worried about me. I hate to worry her so much. She is such a sweet good kind hearted person... its hard having people you love care about you. When I was alone, outcast, I was fine, but now... now my pain is not my own. My pain is their pain, and its useless to tell her Im ok when Im not, she just *knows* and will press untill I tell her. I love her to death. I just... which me feeling this way didnt hurt her so much.

xoxo SJ at 10:22 PM.

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