SUPERNOVA*

Monday, February 17, 2003

The Saga Ends

Tristan and I are over, completely finished, never happening again. Im to much like Ally for his liking. So he.. expected me to go back to wanting to be his best friend, his whipping post, to concealing my feelings to save his. Because thats what it was before. I dont know if he realises that.

I spent the morning in bed. I couldnt.... move. Ky, Chris, and Trin all called. I couldnt talk. When I finally gave in to moms pestering and took Mizza's call I burst into tears. She actually came by. Basicly she came in, gave me my valentine and said "You look like shit take a shower"
So I did, I thought it would make me feel human. WRONG. I ran out of hot water, and had to finish washing my hair with cold water. Which sucked. *sigh*

Then of course came the second conversation with him. Which was worse then the first..... then I did some stupid things. And sat outside in the rain....

The rest of the day is sort of a blur.... a lot of crying, throwing up, and watching sappy movies.... I want him to be happy and if this makes him happy fine... but the good times are what makes this so hard.

I thought he saw me. THe real me, the me I dont like to admit I am... I thought he saw that girl and loved her... but I guess he just didnt love her enough to over look the flaws.
I am alone. So it goes.

xoxo SJ at 2:43 AM.

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Name ♥ Sara
Birthday ♥ o1//o2
Horoscope ♥ Aquarius
School ♥ Of Hard Knocks

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