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Saturday, March 15, 2003

Flabbergasted

Today has been a day. Last night I didn't get to bed till five. I was talking to Kenny, who is doing amazingly well all things considered. Im very proud of him really. Hes such a good kind person, and he doesnt ask for anything you know? Hes in my life becase he enjoys me, not because of what I will do, or who I will be for him.
Gilli and I had an interesting conversation. I was talking about Chris, and the idea that he is not only keeping this mystery girl a secret from me, but is also in love with her, and she broght up that it might be me.... I dont know what to think. On one hand, I love Chris, I adore Chris, but I would not be involved with him because I would not subject him to an Abby Realtionship nightmare. Id only hurt him. And then there is the thought that its not me which makes my heart hurt. But I dont know why.
Then today Bryan called me. Bryan is... my ex who made my life hell and still thinks hes in love withme, I was pretty shook up over the whole thing and I was talking to Kenny about not wanting to be one of those cold cynical bitter women who run from love, but at the same timeI feel it happening because I dont want to be hurt, and then somehow Isort of blurted out I take the abuse bcause I dont think I dserve better. Then Kenny picked up the phone, called me, and sang to me. *sigh* I was flabergasted. I still am but i need to go now Ill write more later

xoxo SJ at 10:44 PM.

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Name ♥ Sara
Birthday ♥ o1//o2
Horoscope ♥ Aquarius
School ♥ Of Hard Knocks

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