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Friday, March 14, 2003

RANT

I am... angry. And hurt and unkind, and ugly and horrible and hateful and a million other unflattering things.
Im just going to rant here because I can. Its my right. Im worrid about Gabi, shes not dealing very well with that happend at her school earlier this week, though I think under the circimstance she could be doing worse, Im worried about Brii too. With the new baby, the thing at school, and school in general shes feeling a bit lost in hte shuffle and Im not sure how to help her.
Then there is Chris meeting someone. Damnit I dont want to share Chris-san. I dont get to talk to him enough as it is and if hes with somene Ill talk to him even less. Everyone gets to caught up in raltionships. ANd he wont even tell me who she is. In fact I wouldn't have known at all if I hadnt been looking for his last post time so I could be sure I hadn't missed him. I dont like knowing he has a secret hes not sharing. And I dont like the idea of sharing him... thats so selfish....
Then there is Kenny. My darling Kenny. The poor dear. I hate Kte enough for the both of us. I cant believe what shes done to him. That someone so good and kind and just... lovable believes that Kate is the last person that will ever love him for him makes me sick. I could just. GR!! He deserves so much love and goodness..
Then there is me and my lonleiness. Yes I have great friends. I have Gabi who worships me and Chris who wants to take care of me... but... well Im only human, and I want so badly to be... sought after, desired, wanted, I want to be temptng and intoxicating, I want to be kissed and touched. I want someone to tell me Im beauiful and not mean it in a sft spoken older brother way. And Im finding myself in the akward place of desiring one of my best friends, and another close friend, while still nursing a battered heart and smarting from the blow Tristan struck... and missing the jackass like crazy. Such is Abbykis life

xoxo SJ at 4:43 PM.

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