SUPERNOVA*

Saturday, April 12, 2003

Abby is.... sleepy today. Last night was pretty ineresting, I spent all day working on getting the living room clean, I still have a lot to do, but last night Charity decided we needed to clean my room. so we get started, and I mean we REALLY cleaned, like my closet, drawers, bookshelves, boxes I hadnt opend since the move (when I was 13, Im now 18 *shudder*).Anyway, in the end, 3 bags to take to the Youth Ranch, 4 of clothes that are just to ewww to keep, and like... a truckload of stuff to haul off to the dump.
Next I have to clean the carpet because its just sort of... ewwww, but mom got a new steam-vac for Chrismas so it shouldnt be to bad. We drank Corona and played 20 questions. I found out A LOT I didnt not need or want to know, like Charity's first year at college, she spent finals week drunk/hungover and still managed to ace every final. And then I asked "ok so how often where you drunk?" and she said "Well ok.. like if we averaged it out, two days a week, but if you added all the days up, it would total like.. a month." I live with a bunch of drunks. Mom was so tipsy even after just half a beer, she just this goofy stupid grin. I actually didnt really feel anything. Just sort of giggly, but that was more from Charity's college stories then anything else.
I talked to Jared this morning. I havent talked to him in a long time. We talked about Tristan, but I didnt find myself getting hysterical, just reserved and maybe a little sorry. Then I told him about Kenneth and how things are going and everyting. Then we talked about what music we like and all that peachy stuff.
Jay and I arent speaking anymore... I dunno... its a mess. Maybe I did overreact, but its not pride, its not... ego. Its real emotion and.. maybe its better this way. Jay and I always had a roky realtionship. And when it came down to me being mad a her she was just... horrible, she knows what to say to make me feel four inches tall. And its weird but like... I guess... I just wanted her to care that it hurt me and understand why.
Daniel called me yesterday. Hes so cute sometimes. Hes like addicted to my voice or something lol. His sisters tease him about having a crush on me *aww* He hates it when I use that word lol. We got to talking this morning about diets and how they become like obsessons. How much youve lost, how much more you have to go, the feeling of satisfaction when you go to bed, just a little bit hungery because it means youre doing good, the shame when you gain a little bit back, even if it is just water weight, the way not matter how much you lose its never enough, there is no "last five pounds".

xoxo SJ at 3:55 AM.

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