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Thursday, May 22, 2003

Case of the Ex... From Hell

I should have known Kenneth would not be mature about the breakup. I should have known he'd get his knickers in a twist and be a shit head. First he tells people I "got bored" with him, and thats why I left. Then yesterday I talked to him about it, and he told me falling in love with me was a mistake and I wasn't worth his tears. And then he told me he couldnt have possibly known what was wrong because I never told him, Im like Hello?! Everytime I tired to tell you, you threw a tizzy! I had a frigging breakdown on the phone with him, and the next words out of his mouth were about him needing space.

So my question to him was "Would you rather I lived a miserable lie trying to be what you wanted?" and he said "No I don't want you to live a lie, no matter how good the lie is" and Im like, ok thats the point! You're the only person it was good for! I was miserable! But of course he doesn't get that. I shouldn't be suprised. He goes from calling Kate a fat cow to mooning over her in a matter of days, he says he hates Susan with a passion, but he still talks to her, he still opens the files when she sends him naughty pictures of herself, and he TOLD me about it. And the fuckwit doesn't see how he made this mess for himself? Whatever.

I got my diaryrings all sorted and prettyfuled so now the page wont take forever and a year to load. YeY! Go me! I talked to Sam, Jerom, Coal and a bunch of other people, as always Brit is such an angel and I love you to bits chickidoodle. LoL Leave it to Sam to make me laugh, and feel all cute and shit... well Coal and Jerom too but whatever they are all angels... Nialle never replied to the PM I sent shim... blah Im not even going to worry about it right now. Chris gave me a new nickname! But I dont remember *exactly* what it was, but I know it means "Priestess of the Moon" So now my MSN Name is: Ophelia's Sin//Priestess of the Moon//The Goddess Muse Very poetical as Sugarbean (Brit) and I would say.

You know I've been thinking, and I voiced this opinon to Brit, if Jay hadn't been the only girl I'd ever wanted to kiss, I would totally open myself up to forgetting about guys. But Jay was the only girl I ever really wanted to be with.. speaking of which, Ive had the strangest urge to just kiss her all the time lately. She's so.. alive and sexy.. and.. gah. I have a crush, I admit it, but at the same time, we talked about it, we don't work as a couple, and we're both to jealous to be fuck buddies, because lets face it, she has issues with me having men in my life, and I hate feeling not important to her. You know those are the only times we fight, when shes not thinking, and when Im with someone she doesnt like (meaning anyone at all). She also admits that the reason she cant stay mad at me or ignore me is because shes horribly infatuated back. *shrug* Everwhat, life goes on, and we ought to just get on with it.

xoxo SJ at 11:00 PM.

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