SUPERNOVA*

Monday, April 05, 2004

I miss Jay. I haven't talked to her in a couple days and I just... miss her. I hate being this insanely busy. I never get to talk to Shaun Nate or Jay anymore. And it sucks fucking donkey dick.Friday went to Trisha's Travis worked himself into a panic attack, and in my personal opinon, its because he knew he'd get drugs. It fucking pisses me off, what pisses me off even more is that he like wanted me with him. Like I seriously think if I hadnt thrown my hands up in the air he'd have insisted I went to the hospital with him too. I refused though. So I staied with Trish and we watched the boysWhen he and Kimber got back, he was all hugging up on me and shit, thanking me for being there for him, for putting up with him. I just forced a smile and noddedI really wish I hadnt gone if you want the truth of it. I could have staied at home sleeping and working on my paper for Stockton. Fucking Rip Van Winkle and his fucking symbolism.Saturday I just crashed. I got home at like 2 in the afternoon and slept till like 7 or eight. Now its after 1 AM monday morning, I have to be up in five hours, Im exhusted and feel like shit. My whole body hurts. And I miss my Jaykins. Ugh I feel like Im a completely shitty friend. Im going to email her tomorrow afternoon between my breaks. I had every intention of calling her last week but she dodged the question when I brought it up. I miss Natey too. *sigh* I just... I know Im building this life for myself, but I want my friends who've been thereto be here now, to see it you know? To see what Im doing. And for once in really long time I am actually doing something with myself, shock shock horror. And once again Im bitching...I had a dream about Clare the other night. But I dont think it means anything. I hope it doesnt anyway. I cant deal with that shit on top of everything else *mental note to up Effexor dose tomorrow* I want paxil man. Or Zanx.Souther Bitch Scene with Trish tomorrow woo. Not. I love her to death but one she cant act and two shes fucking off. Ive put a lot of work into my character and she hadnt even read her shit twice. GRRRI hate people.But you still love me anyway right?

xoxo SJ at 9:39 AM.

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