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Sunday, May 09, 2004

Fury

Im mad at Laura for being a pot head
Im mad at my mom for being a ditz
Im mad at Gran for being sick
Im mad at my friends for never being there
Im mad at Tristin for coming back with "My Grandma wont make it much longer either." when I tried to talk to her about whats going on with me.
Im mad at Jerry because hes a pompus ass
Im mad at my cousin John for getting sick because I still need him as a big brother figure
Im mad at my Dad for never being around
Im mad at my sister for being a selfish bitch
Im mad at Trisha for being like me and being a hypocrite
Im mad at Travis because Im never good enough
Im mad at Nate because hes in AZ
Im mad at Shaun because I dont know him anymore and I can't run to him
Im mad at Jay because I never get to talk to her anymore even though its not her fault
Im mad at Nialle for not caring enough to even write back
Im mad at GOD because of the abuse and shit Ive gone through
Im mad at my doctors for not fixing me
Im mad at my body for being ugly, scarred and imperfect.
Im mad at my hair for never doing what it should
Im mad at my insecurties because they hold me back
Im mad at my Aunts for enabling my mother
Im mad at every boy I ever dated for making me hate me
Im mad at V because I feel infearror to her
Im mad at Aly for cutting because she made me promise I wouldnt
Im mad at the house for never being clean
Im mad at Jake for being shallow
Im mad at Kimber for being a pessimist
Im mad that I cant find a razor blade
Im mad that I cant find peace
Im mad that the tears wont stop today
Im mad that waterproof mascarra isnt waterproof
Im mad that I cant even fucking talk to someone whos supposed to be my best friend because shes up on her high and mighty fucking horse.
Im mad that no one hears the screams.
Im mad that I cant breathe
Im mad that Im sofficating and cant get out.
Im mad at Gabi for walking out on me
Im mad at Colleen for turning her back on me
Im mad at myself because I left them no choice
Im mad at myself because I hate who I am
Im mad at myself because I feel out of control again

xoxo SJ at 5:46 PM.

About Me

Name ♥ Sara
Birthday ♥ o1//o2
Horoscope ♥ Aquarius
School ♥ Of Hard Knocks

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