SUPERNOVA*

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

Who am I to judge you, but I know I do. I know I tell you you're wrong because I don't agree... but its not my life. Perhaps its fear, the fear of losing you, of watching you kill yourself, of knowing I could have tried to stop you but didn't because it was "your life"....If it were me what would you do? I don't remember now everything you ever did, only that somehow it never got through and I had to hit bottom after bottom for my life to stop hurting.....But it never happend, my life still hurts. I still cry, I still scream, I still make mistakes. Thats how Ive grown.. yet in ten years I wont be a rotting pile of flesh with a razor blade in one hand and a joint in the other with a bottle of whiskey between my knees. I won't let myself be that.You're so much more... but I can't fix you. You're hell bent on being the victim, on being misunderstood and yelled at...Im so tired of everyone today. So tired of Travis and his drama, and his "I wanted you but it scared me" bullshit. Don't tell me now, don't tell me when Im over you, don't try to put me back in that place. I don't want to be there anymore. I am not a fucking toy for your amusment asshole. You didn't take the chance when you had it.Class was horrible this morning, I know I failed the test. I KNOW I did, but I guess it doesn't really matter. Life goes on. Acting wasn't so bad, worked with Jacob again on our monologues, he was really helpful, and seemed to appreciate everything I had to tell him. After class I was standing around talking to Jenifer, Travis and Tony, (Tony is mui yummy by the by). We were goofing around and then Travis just licked me. Like out of no where. It was gross, and weird since he freaked out when I threatened to lick him earlier. Whatever.I was almost asleep in Anthropology, infact Im almost asleep over the keyboard now. I think that means I have to go.

xoxo SJ at 9:52 AM.

About Me

Name ♥ Sara
Birthday ♥ o1//o2
Horoscope ♥ Aquarius
School ♥ Of Hard Knocks

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