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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Ayiiiii

I’m a mess, but apparently a loveable mess. Went to Ash’s last night, she fed me because I couldn’t eat at dinner. I don’t know WHY but the thought of eating at five yesterday made me vomit. Was not fun in the slightest. I think I’ve got a bug or summat. Been listening to Garbage and Rage for the last couple days, with a bit of Puddle mixed in for good measure. I’ve been fucking off in my classes and its going to bite me in the ass. Bah.

I miss them more then anyone could possibly know, I miss having someone there that just knew how to deal with me, just knew, even when I was crazy that there was someone worth loving under there. I don’t feel safe here, I don’t feel safe to be me, to be hurt, to be angry, to be anything but this fucking little pink loving peppy… thing. I could add more adjectives but it would serve little purpose right now. It’s all self depreciating.

Shaun wants me to hand over Beaux. Somehow that makes me angry. I don’t know why exactly except that it was mine, someone took it away, and then when Jay tried to rebuild it, they took it away from her and gave it to me. She put a shit load of work into it, and then he and Aly were just like “She’s not you, it won’t be the same” and now he’s asking to run it while I’m out on leave? What the fuck. I still think they were all just fucking pussy hurt that Jay had standards that Aly and Amber didn’t meet.

And heres another point I’m sure he would love to argue, but without Jay and I, there’s like three people that would post anyway, and one of them can’t write for shit and so the plot lines crapped out would be pathetic at best. And while we’re one the subject of bad writers, he thinks the whole point is that wed introduce new members, but the members he seems to find cant string four sentences together. Ugh! I have class. I’m going

xoxo SJ at 10:46 PM.

About Me

Name ♥ Sara
Birthday ♥ o1//o2
Horoscope ♥ Aquarius
School ♥ Of Hard Knocks

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