SUPERNOVA*

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Oh but you could say my first birthday sucked. Les canceled on me, I got sick after eating, cried all the way home, Kadie didn’t feel good so we had to put off my party until later, and thoughts of Grandma beat on me like an unwanted redheaded step chillin. We ended up drinking in Ash’s room. Timmy got wasted and took a swing at me, then when I swung back he stomped off and threw shit around in his room for like two hours, now Josh has filled a report and Tim will rat us all out, but we’re all going to be like “Tim who?”

Yesterday however was way better. Les got me like four cards, a journal, cupcakes, and charms for my bracelet. Jake and Kades got me roses, Ambyr got me flowers, and Ashley got me drunk. We went over to Jake and Kadie’s, Shauna and Alicia showed up we played Crazy Eights, Id have to say after chugging about Eight beers I was a lil bit tipsy. Kadie had to walk me in, then Ambyr and I giggled with Ashley for a long time while we munched on food. All in all it was a much better day.

Its moments like that that I live for. The rest of life seems so plagued by insecurity, self doubt, but last night none of it mattered. Sitting there with my friends, throwing back beers giggling as Shauna half gave me a lap dance, in that moment I was content… of course in the back of my mind I think “Jay and Laura should be here, Shaun should be pulling my hair and stealing my shots. Tara and I should be crooning to the Doors.”

I have a goal, at some point, when I’ve my own apartment I’m having everyone out. We’re going to get completely shit faced and have mad orgies for four days… or not. I just want to merge the two parts of my life. What I wouldn’t give to be able to hear Laur and Jays voices. But Id have to say my phone card is out mmmmyeap.

*le sigh*

xoxo SJ at 11:10 PM.

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Name ♥ Sara
Birthday ♥ o1//o2
Horoscope ♥ Aquarius
School ♥ Of Hard Knocks

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