SUPERNOVA*

Thursday, March 17, 2005

haven't really been able to bring myself to write the last few weeks. Everything is so fucked up, I mean Ash got kicked out, Im losing my best friend. Mom and I fight constantly...

Right now though, the biggest thing, the thing that maybe has changed the way I feel about everyone, inculding myslef is the fact that I encountered the first homophobic attack on my character. Im not gay enough for my gay friends and Im not striaght enough for my straight ones.

It hurt, a lot, I cried for days, made myself sick actually. It hurt, but Ive let it go.

Sadly its left me cold. I feel... nothing unless its loathing or cynicsm. Its all left a bitter taste in my mouth and part of me wants to go back to that time when I belived we were all inherantly good people who just made bad choices.

With time my pain has turned bitter, leaving an after taste of angst.
In time I have become what I think you believe I am.

In Academic news I passed out of Psych with a C, yey. I had a B, but the final killed me. I got A's in Speech and Shakespeare. I got an A on my Female Genital Mutilation paper, so Ill pass out of 123 with a B, maybe an A-.

xoxo SJ at 11:35 PM.

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Name ♥ Sara
Birthday ♥ o1//o2
Horoscope ♥ Aquarius
School ♥ Of Hard Knocks

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