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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Ouch

Its strange to hear someone you love to death tell you that you shouldn’t do the one thing you actually aspire to. It’s always soothed of course by a compliment in another strong area, but it really did hurt to hear her say that I couldn’t possibly be good at it because I’m too judgmental.

There is a difference between having to work with idiot writers who don’t understand the concept of character and plot development and sharing with the world a love of literature. If I went to Ashland, got my PhD, then, I had hopes of becoming a Professor…

Lesley told me I’m not nice enough to do it.

It really hurt my feelings (which sounds so lame). I felt like four inches tall when she said it. It doesn’t help that I’m stuck, at home, every night, and she’s got new friends that she goes out with till god knows when doing god know what.

Its not that I don’t want her to have friends.

Its that I’m feeling terribly unimportant and unloved, and unwanted (Dealing with Shaun does that to me), and she’s really leaving. She’s not going to be here for my twenty-first. She’s not going to be here for my graduation. She’s not going to be here.

Mahaffey was right.

Being alone in the life boat is only marginally better than being alone in the water.

xoxo SJ at 8:04 PM.

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