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Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Life Lessons in Ten Minutes or less

I barely got my research paper handed into Masterchief C. today. Actually I skipped class and wrote it in that hour and a half. Then I went out for a cigarette with Hope- even though I still don’t smoke. I’m just funny like that. Then I caught Kadie outside her math class, I went over her work’s cited page and cover page with her because she was worried, then we went and got coffee. It was just the pick me up I needed.

Now I’m waiting for her to get out of U.S. History, and we’re going to go grab an early dinner. I’m glad I’m getting to spend time with her because I’ve really missed that little munchkin.

I feel like life is so crazy right now, I haven’t had a “real” conversation with Ari in ages. We’re just too busy. I meant to call her this weekend but I was busy hiding from my family.

Speaking of family, my cousin Jenifer had her baby. She named it Danielle, which was a dig at my little sister because it’s her ex-boyfriend’s new girlfriend’s name. I thought that was pretty fucked up but what are you gonna do. Jen has always been like that.

My sister called me once while they were down and then I didn’t hear from her until I got her email this morning. I just rolled my eyes. She’s so caught up in her little sixteen year old Drama. It’s sort of funny actually because to me that would be so much nicer to deal with than all the crap that’s been going on lately. I am so sick of my family…

BUT on a positive note, this is the first Holiday/family visit since I was sixteen that I didn’t have to get completely shit-faced to deal with it. I think that’s sort of a minor accomplishment in and of itself. I am sticking to this no more alcohol thing. I know that right now with my state of mind I would fall back into that trap of doing it all the time if I had it in reach.

Actually there were a couple times over our little break- while Aunt S. was there- that I my automatic reaction was “I need a drink, I can’t deal with this”. Now I know there are people who would say that’s really awful, but all I can say is thinking and doing aren’t the same thing. We all have vices, at least mine doesn’t involve slicing myself to shit anymore.

We really do have to take the little victories where we can you know- or this thing called life would swallow us up. If we find joys in our little accomplishments, it doesn’t all seem so insurmountable.

xoxo SJ at 6:26 PM.

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